Falling in Love with Jesus

I have been thinking about the differences in who I am as a Christian now juxtaposed to who I was in high school and college.  I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior when I was a junior in high school at the Baptist Church I was attending.  I remember the altar call and the song that was playing - “Just as I Am.”  I went forward, knelt and Pastor Gosnell prayed with me.  It was real and I felt it but my relationship with Jesus was a mixture of adoration and fear.  Knowing I was gay and wanting to change that was part of the motivation for my salvation.  I thought if I could just accept Jesus into my heart I would be saved from both eternal damnation and what I thought at the time was a perversion.  I served God out of fear and not so much out of love. 

I accepted Jesus as my Savior again in the spring of 2009 and this time I did it completely out of love.  I fell in love and am continually re-falling in love with Jesus.  The closer I get to God the more I feel the desire to fall down on my face in adoration and praise.  It is not about religion for me - it is not about being a sinner in need of saving.  It is about relationship with a God who loved me so much that He stepped down from His throne to take human form, be tortured and nailed to a cross.  Jesus died for me. 

So I am a very different Christian then I was in my youth.  It is not just about the truth of Jesus for me anymore but the real relationship I have with Him.  It is the day to day of serving and loving a God who never leaves my side. 

 Oh how great is our God.  

Here are the lyrics to a great song that I love.

Give me rules
I will break them
Give me lines
I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet 
It ought to be

(CHORUS)
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love

Give me words
I'll misuse them
Obligations
I'll misplace them 
'Cause all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free
It's gotta be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love

It's like I'm falling in love, love, love
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made
Me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me
It's gotta be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love
It's gotta be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love
It's like I'm falling, oh
I'm falling in falling
It's like I'm falling